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It is day 71.

So far I have lost 10 pounds.

Walked 103 miles in the last month and a half.  More since I walked for a month without tracking.

The days of thinking I can’t walk that far are gone.

The fear of walking for 4 to 5 miles is also gone.

I realize my body can do a lot more than I ever thought it could.

I feel more energized, healthier, happier.

I still feel fear of injuring myself or getting sick, I don’t trust my body completely just yet.

I have a rocky relationship with food.

I am on the search for a more open and relaxed relationship with food, one that doesn’t involve restriction or doing away with entire food categories, as it brings up my shit around feeling deprived as a child.

I am loving myself more and more each day.

I’m taking big risks in my life, being part of the 10 month Core Energetics program where you have to show up emotionally, where we are uncovering our life task and coming up with a project to work on for the next 10 months.

I’m hiring a personal trainer, which feels very risky and scary for me.

I’m investing in my business in major ways this coming year.

I’m singing again and will be taking voice lessons in the coming months.

I feel closer to myself and to my daughter.

 

I’m opening up to love.

Today I am sore from yesterday’s gym workout. It’s been kind of a lazy day since I took the day off of walking or going to the gym. It has definitely been a roller coaster ride so far, up down, up down..yeah that’s pretty much how it goes. There is usually a lot of resistance when we embark upon a journey in which we are changing how we see ourselves. Part of us would rather stay safe and continue with the way things have been, but another part knows there is more, knows that being your best self requires that you stretch beyond your comfort zone.

I am not worried about the journey as I have now accepted that it will be rocky at times, but I will get there nonetheless. Facilitating the Journey of Yes group has been wonderful for me as we are all in there saying yes and supporting one another when we struggle. It is a blessing to have such amazing women in my courses and programs and I can’t think of anything else I’d rather be doing.

If you’d like to follow along I post some of my video diaries on Youtube and share my progress. You can see them here:  www.youtube.com/sgagos

I’m reminding myself to breathe all the way. To love myself every single step of the way. This is just another part of the journey of coming home to who I truly am.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here.

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