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Day 28!!!! I did it!! It took me longer than 28 days, but that’s just a detail. I am super proud of myself for sticking to it and sharing my heart with all of you. Thank you for being here and riding along. On a regular basis, I tend to blog sporadically, so you may see a blog post from me a few times a month.

The bit of truth is, this was really hard. Sticking to it is not easy for me. I tend to be someone who has trouble “staying in” and so I am grateful that even when I shared such vulnerable parts of me and wanted to run away from feeling so exposed, I stayed. I dealt with my feelings, I was “with” my feelings and entered into the deep waters again and again.  And it was so important for me to do so.

It makes me think about my classes and online classes or commitments of any kind really and how hard it is for so many of us to stay. To be with the feelings that come up and stay with them, stay with ourselves. I am not sure if there is a way to make that easier, but rather there needs to be an acceptance and peace with the discomfort.

We don’t like to be uncomfortable, do we?

We will avoid that at all costs and let’s face it feelings often make us uncomfortable.

Perhaps we need to:

Know that we will be uncomfortable

Be prepared with a way to deal with that discomfort

Love ourselves in the discomfort

Forgive ourselves for being uncomfortable in the first place

Be willing to stay IN, till we get to the other side of it.

Stay in and get to the other side, lots of times, so we know how it goes, so we trust how it goes.

Surrender to the process.

These 28 days taught me to stay in, be with, accept, make peace with, love myself despite all the discomfort I was feeling. I dipped into it time and time and again and came out the other side each time, breathing into my vulnerability.

It was hard, but then again, healing and truth is hard at first but the reward is so great.

May you dip in your own deep waters again and again, be with the feelings, love yourself anyway, each time emerging closer to the truth of who you are. It is worth it and you are worth it.

I love you.