(the above is a digitally enhanced version of the art journal page)
I’ve been grappling with what to say about what happened in Newtown. I have watched the news, cried, tried NOT to watch the news, so as not to get too steeped into the emotions of it all and that sometimes didn’t feel right either. I think as a nation many of us are mourning with them, and those feelings cannot be denied, neither should they take over our lives. So there is a balance I am trying to find. My art journaling practice has given me a chance to express my sorrow.
Before the tragedy at Newtown, I had created a messy background and left it to dry. For the days following I kept looking at this background, kept feeling an urge to express something but nothing was coming. I was so sad that I found it hard to do much of anything those first couple of days. I didn’t go shopping, I didn’t create art, I really don’t know what I did, but I locked my doors, put my alarm on each evening, and reminded myself “anything can happen”. I didn’t want to come from this fearful place, but there it was staring me right in the face and I couldn’t ignore that I was having some very real feelings of fear in addition to the anger and deep sadness.
I finally sat down, told myself, just start, just see what happens (something I tell all my course participants) and Fallen Angel came to me, the tears streaming down her face.
Even Angels cried on Friday, December 14th, 2012.
I felt good to let her flow through me, to express my own sorrow through her. I am grateful for my art especially on those days in which I have no words.
Much Love to you all. Hold your loved ones close and keep hope alive.
Want to see how I created Fallen Angel, here is the video: