This week in the Elements of Art Journaling course with Effy Wild, we started to get our feet wet with the elements. We had to create a cover which at first I absolutely hated and then grew to love. I layered and layered and added color and made it more of the color I wanted and pretty soon something emerged that was pleasing to me and actually was lovely to look at.
Lesson One: Stick with it, something that at first glance may appear unattractive can turn into something beautiful.
As I explored each element in my journal I noticed that some came easier than others. I was particularly attracted to water because I have a water imbalance called Diabetes Insipidus which causes my body not to retain fluids thereby causing extreme chronic thirst. In those months before meds, water was the driving force in my life. I had to keep myself constantly hydrated and drank about 2-3 gallons of water a day because I was constantly losing fluids, about every 20 minutes. It was a horrible existence and all I could think about was what I would drink next, did I have enough, when will this desert thirst end. I appreciate water more than most people because I can literally go into shock within hours of not having any. It is my lifeline and I am very eager to work with it and explore its meaning in my life.
Lesson Two: Sometimes you are attracted to what you need most in your life.
Fire on the other hand was an element I had the most trouble in describing and actually felt some fear around. Some of the words that came to me were destruction, fast, swift, burn…all of which I have some feelings of fear around.
Lesson 3: The element you feel a charge around, or uncertainty about may be the element you most need to explore.
A lovely fellow student in my class, mentioned that the colors of my cover are fire colors and asked if I was a fire sign. I never even thought about how I am attracted to certain colors and how that might relate to my relationship with the elements. Quite intriguing. I love the color red and even had a bedroom in which I painted all four walls red. A gorgeous vibrant red.
It felt exciting to have another doorway into knowing myself more. (There is so much we don’t really know about ourselves).
This was the site I used:
Turns out I am a fire sign and this was the description:
The Sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy.
Sun in Leo
There’s an unmistakably regal air to Solar Leos. These are dignified–even noble–folk. Leos have a reputation for being conceited, but think again. Leos do feel important, but this generally takes the form of wanting to change the world in some way–to make the world a better place. They are generally motivated by affection for people, and often have big dreams and plans to make people happy….
It is sometimes difficult to imagine Leos as go-getters if you happen to catch them in one of their languid moods. These people can sleep in, laze around, and luxuriate for long periods of time. However, when they do get to work, they do it with intensity and determination. In this way, they are not unlike their symbol, the lion. The worst thing you can do to a Leo is accuse them of bad intentions. Displaying behavior that makes them think you don’t appreciate them runs a close second. These happy, jovial people become mighty hurt when others don’t see them for their noble intentions.
WELL, THAT HAS STEPHANIE WRITTEN ALL OVER IT!
Too much fun!!!
So I am loving all that I am learning and the connections being made. I am loving the actual creating and the learning environment Effy has created. I love having to get to the art page every week because once I am there, it becomes a meditation for me.
I think there is a part of me that has been longing to get back to the basic elements of life, to ground myself in them and to open myself up to what messages they have for me and so I am grateful for this course. All things come just in time.